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so i am currently going on 1 and a half hours of sleep. yep, thats it. i was up till 5:30am working on my final project for graphic design 2. i seriously gave it my all (as my prof said i needed to) and i still feel like it sucks. maybe its because i'm being negative cause i got no sleep..but i'm just really worried. this is the only class i'm worried about too. i'm not even worried about graphic design 3. its mostly because this is my second time taking GD2 and i got a C+ last time..just barely not passing. so i had to retake it this semester, and i did really well on 1 project. i did pretty bad on another one (that more than half the class did bad on) and the first project i did so-so on. so i really needed to pull something really good together for the final project. and i feel that i did. i spent more than 6 hours straight working on it. i went to kinkos last night at 3:30am. it was weird..but necessary. but problem is..after working on it for practically FOREVER..the print outs don't look right. but at that time in the morning i wasnt about to go back home, work on it some more, than go back and print again. i had already spend nearly $25 printing it. so i just comped it up and its ready to hand in. i guess i'm just worrying about the 'worst case scenerio' of me not passing AGAIN because my prof is an extremely hard grader who won't hesitate to fail someone. but what the problem here is i can't afford to retake the class a 3rd time in a row. i'm graduating in a week and 1 day. i just hope she gives me a passing grade. and if she doesnt, well...all hell might break loose.
blah. i dont even know what i'm typing anymore.
i wanna go to sleep. my eyesight is fuzzy because i'm so overworked and tired.
i was seriously going crazy last night. talking to myself and seeing things.
okay it wasnt that bad..i'm over exaggerating.
i just need a miracle.
but until i know muy fate, all i can do it worry.
I WANT TO BE DONE WITH SCHOOL!!!
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[09 May 2007|08:32am] |
why am i so nervous to present my restaurant project tonight? ugh. i just don't like public speaking. but i put alot of work into this project. a menu, business card, special coasters, and a website. this is like 4 weeks of work coming down to 1 presentation. i just need to be confident about my work and present myself well. this will be practice for the real deal. and not to mention, i look very nice today...and dressing up puts a smile on my face :)
wish me luck!
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| bring may flowers... |
[30 Apr 2007|01:53pm] |
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it feels like its been april forever. seriously..i know its only 30 days but damn, it just won't end. finally tomorrow is may 1st and sooo much stuff is getting closer and closer. all my end of semester projects are due, portfolio reviews, websites need to be done...everything! also, i kinda need to find a job. i'm leaving ritz on may 10..mostly because i can't take it anymore. it basically sucks there. i get paid shit to do bitch work..i get the worst hours ever..and i'm just sick of working there. so alas..i am leaving. my boss gave me a bunch of shit for leaving her because i'm not the only one leaving. shes losing me, Sara, Jessie, Brian, and Rob dropped down to like 11 hours a week. i feel bad, but i'm sick of the guilt. i'm starting a new life after i graduate and i don't need ritz holding me back. BOOYAH! hah. okay. felt good to let that out.
so last week was probably one of the worst weeks i've ever experienced. i've been sick for like 2 weeks now with a stomach flu-ish type thing. i dont mean to be gross, but i basically can't keep any food down. no, i'm not puking. it comes out the other way. it was pretty bad. so bad that at work on saturday i was so dehydrated and weak (because i had no food in me for so long) i practically fainted at work! i had to call my mom and she came to pick me up and i spent the rest of the day in the hospital. thats right boys and girls..i went back to the emergency room. i was just there in december for slicing my finger and getting stitches. i know i need to take care of myself..but i have my priorities alllll mixed up. my health should come before most thigns. sometimes i go nights without eating dinner because i have to do homework all night. not good. and i go weeks without grocery sghopping because i dont have time or money. so i eat out because its quick and convienient, but its unhealthy. i'm planning a major diet this summer.
well heres a small look at my life for the next month. sorry if i'm not available at all...i might not sleep until may 24th...
thurs. may 3 - printing tour with towson AIGA, Spiderman 3 at 12am
monday may 7 - portfolio review with 10 pieces for senior project
thurs may 10 - last day at ritz
sat may 12 - LISA TURNS 23!
monday may 14 - another portfolio review
tues may 15 - final illustration 2 class. all paintings due.
wed. may 16 - last day of classes: campaign project for GD2 due (3 pieces), final project for digital design motion due, final for GD3 done of website, menu, etc..plus redo of 1st website
may 19 & 20 - wine in the woods
mon may 21 - 10 am final portfolio review/interview with real industry professionals and my advisor and prof.
thurs may 24 - 2pm i graduate :)
fri may 25 - real life begins, or something...
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| GUESS WHAT I DID?!??????/ |
[22 Apr 2007|11:17pm] |
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i've come to the conclusion that i can't go for very long without injuring myself. mostly in the form of slicing my fingers. well today i did it again! i was preparing my piece for the senior show (which i have to drop off tomorrow) and i was trimming my business card and i sliced the tip of my thumb off. yeah. at first it didnt bleed and it was weird, but then blood was everywhere. dripping down my hand, on the carpet, on my shirt...and it didnt wanna stop. the cut wasnt deep enough for me to think i needed to get stitches..and because i have a big fear of needles, i was freaking out yet again. my roommate brought me bandaids and everything..eventually after like 20 minutes of pressure it stopped bleeding. now its just very sore and its the freakin tip of my thumb! hardest place to put a bandaid = tip of any finger.
atleast it wasnt my right hand this time.
i need to be more careful :(
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[21 Apr 2007|11:37am] |
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its absolutely gorgeous today...high of 77, abundant sunshine...
the LAST place i feel like being on a day like this is INDOORS WORKING for 9 hours at RITZ CAMERA!!!!!
i am sick of having to work every flippin saturday. i've closed every single saturday for like 5 months now unless i've requested it off. but this won't be happening much longer!
only 3 weeks till my LAST DAY working at Ritz and i definitely can't wait!
oh also, only 1 MONTH and 3 DAYS till GRADUATION!!!!!!!!!
i'm AM scared,
but dammit..
i can't wait anymore.
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[17 Apr 2007|03:59pm] |
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[05 Apr 2007|05:42pm] |
today i ordered my graduation cap & gown. its really happening now. only like a month and a half and i'll be done with school forever!!!
and you know what, i'm pretty damn scared.
but i know i'll be okay.
i'm gonna be just fine.
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| april showers... |
[01 Apr 2007|10:44am] |
today april starts. april fools day. well i'm not fooling anyone when i say, where did the time go? theres only like a month and a half left before i GRADUATE college and i'm so not ready. tomorrow we have our first portfolio review in senior project and we need 5 pieces done. i have 3 done...well 1 needs a tad more work. but today is a work day, plus i monitor in the computer lab at school from 1-5 so i'll be getting work done then. by tomorrow i'll hopefully have 5 GOOD pieces done. i plan on having a magazine cover/toc/spread, book/brochure i redid in GD2, poster from GD2, identity project with my business card/letterhead/envelope design, and a study abroad poster i plan on doing today. the 5th one i may change..and redo something else from another class. but either way..i need 5 pieces. all mounted and cover-flapped.
towson makes me LOATHE graphic design.
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[15 Mar 2007|10:03pm] |
so today was pretty much one of those days that i would consider a 'bad luck day' because of the fact that i'm sitting here right now and my legs are killing me and i have a huge bruise forming on my left leg and some scrapes on my arms. well there is a reason for this, and its pretty funny..but considering its me were talking about..its pretty normal.
i had to go to traffic court today to fight a speeding ticket i got back in january for $160. i went out last night to celebrate the beginning of spring break/a friends birthday with my graphic design 3 class and had a great time...and i was a bit hung over this morning, but not too bad. it did cause me to be running late, as always. i went to what i thought was the right court, and parked, paid a meter, but as i was walking i reread the address on the paper i got in the mail...i wasn't in the right area. i asked someone and they said it was allllll the way down chesapeke, past the library. shit. i had to run back to my car and drive it down to the right court, which had a parking garage. everything was going fine now..i parked and took the elevator down, went in the court building, and they had security and all. since i was running late i didnt read all the signs on my way in stating 'NO CELL PHONES OR OTHER ELECTRONIC EQUIPTMENT' and on me was infact, my cell phone, and ipod. so my purse goes through the x-ray..guy tells me "sorry maam, you have to bring your cell phone and ipod back to your car' i was pissed, but whatever. i ran back to the garage and took the elevator..to the wrong floor. the garage was confusing and there i was on the 3rd floor..and i could look through to another level and see my car, but couldn't physically get to it because of how the garage was designed. so my stupid self thinks to climb over the railing (those railings in parking garages that are kinda like rope but harder..and theres like a couple of them. so i climb up and prepare to jump, and my leg gets stuck, i kinda tumble down and i'm dangling there in midair with my leg caught in the railing. it hurt like a bitch. i didnt know what to do and i start thinking my leg is gonna get cut off or something crazy like that...i scream and try to get my leg out, and somehow managed to hoist myself up and untangle my leg and then i crash to the ground. OWWWWWWWW!!!! my leg was all red and it hurt and i could barely walk. but i made it to my car, cried a little, and then pulled myself together and booked it back to the court house while in all this pain. my arm was hurting, i was limping, but i hobbled into the court room and sat down. luckily, the judge was late getting there so i was fine. and my court hearing went fine..he took the points off my license and was very nice and said he didnt want my insurance to go up. he just charged me court fees and $50 for exceeding the speed limit so much. i mean, i was going 49 in a 25 (residential area). but hell...$75 is alot better then $160. so i was quite pleased. but my leg was still killing me! and it hurts even more as the day goes on. i have a nice bruise forming on my left leg and my right leg hurts too for some reason, maybe i fell on it? and my left hand hurts, and i have scrapes on my arms. FUN WAY TO START SPRING BREAK!
but oh well, i'm glad i still went to court. but i just need to be a little smarter when it comes to climbing over rope railings in parking garages. just don't do it. bad idea!
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| gimme a break! |
[13 Mar 2007|06:19pm] |
i need a break. like so badly. and thats why spring break is gonna be amaazing. for various reasons, mostly being that i've been ever so stressed with endless amounts of school work, money problems, issues with scheduling at work, etc. but with all that aside, i'm gonna be a happy girl as of tomorrow at 9:50pm.
spring break begins for me tomorrow after GD3 class and a bunch of people in my class are going to Batemans to celebrate that, and a girl Allison's birthday. then thursday at 1:30pm, i get to go FIGHT THE STATE OF MARYLAND in traffic court. i'm fighting a speeding ticket. i just don't want the points on my license, but i was speeding in a residential area. i'm hoping for the best, and a nice judge. thursday and friday nights i close at work, which is pretty poopilicious if you ask me. but saturday i'm OFF..for a WHOLE WEEK. plus its St.Pattys day, so i'm sure i'll celebrate in some way, drink and stuff. its the one day i can pretend to be irish (it doesnt help that i look itish too.
but...March 19 is a VERY special day for me. its me and Jamie's 1 year anniversary! its been the fastest year of my life, but also the best. mostly because of him :)
were celebrating by spending 3 days in NYC. we leave Sunday and were staying at his grandmas in NJ (she lives minutes from a train station that we'll take to the city) then monday night (thr 19th) were staying in a hotel in the city, a block from times square. and were gonna see a show (Avenue Q) that Jamie's parents are treating us to! and then were spending the whole day tuesday in the city just sight seeing and what not, maybe visit an art museum or something. i love the city and its gonna be great!
after the NYC trip, i'm off work till saturday the 24th, so i'm gonna do A LOT of hw. our first senior project portfolio review is april 2nd and i need to have 5 projects done. i only have 2 thus far. plus i'll have work for other classes i'm sure.
once school starts again i'm becomming a volunteer lab monitor on sundays for one of the mac labs at school. i felt like being nice and helping out..and its only 4 hours each sunday. and it gurantees me off work every sunday till my last day at Ritz Camera (early May probably).
well thats about it for now. life is moving pretty very fast but i'm still here..somehow managing to stay alive!
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| the toughest questions. |
[26 Feb 2007|12:29pm] |
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graduation seems so far away, and the amount of work i have to do before then is outrageous! redoing old projects, completing new projects, paintings, motion graphics shit from adobe after effects (which is VERY hard), and all while retaking a stupid class i took last semester. this is the toughest semester of my LIFE and its starting to get in FULL FORCE and all i'm doing is sitting here and watching the time pass. i need a catalyst.
i have some questions.
HOW am i going to do this?
WHEN am i going to have time to relax, do necessary things to live, like food shop and buy new clothes/shoes and see my friends?
WHAT am i doing with my life after graduation?
WHERE am i going to live?
WHO am i going to become?
WHY do i have that feeling in my gut that i'm just going to fail?
failure is not an option. i just need to get my head on straight and DO MY WORK and STOP PROCRASTINATING.
its time to begin.
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[20 Feb 2007|01:31pm] |
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im sick.
and it sucks.
but i still have to do all the assignments i didnt do last week cause we had a snow day and i figured it was 'okay' to put these assignments off because i'd have an extra week to do them. now my throat is on fire and my nose is leaking and all i want to do is stay in bed all day but i have to do my homework i put off last week.
the moral of my story here is:
dont put off doing homework just because you're missing school due to snow. you'll still have to do the work, no matter how shitty you feel.
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| fuck snow. fuck towson. |
[07 Feb 2007|08:07am] |
fuck you towson university for not even giving us a freakin delay when theres like 3 inches of snow on the ground.
sfhsajk;lfhakjlfhlkahf!!!!!!!!!!!!
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| dlkjfhakjfhklj!%@#$!!!!!!!!!!! |
[29 Jan 2007|08:31am] |
so today i'm starting my last semester of college...EVER! i mean, if all goes according to plan and i pass all my classes. and i will. i'm gonna be a good student this semester. if working at Ritz Camera gets in the way, i won't let it. graduating is my main goal at this point, and getting to that point in May takes priority over everything. YES IT DOES! its gonna be hard, but such is life. i'm taking 5 art classes...all are once a week classes, around 4 hours each. its gonna be the HARDEST semester to date. but i can do it.
i hope..
wish me luck?
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| stitches on a saturday morning |
[17 Dec 2006|08:06pm] |
my 'good luck' struck again yesterday morning. within 10 minutes of getting to work i sliced my finger (ring finger on right hand) with scissors trying to stab a box. its an opening procedure in the lab when you change chemicals. but anyways, i didnt realize at first that i'd cut my finger until there was blood everywhere. i ran to the back and i didnt think it was so bad so i tried putting a bandaid on it but the blood just wouldnt stop. it soaked through 2 bandaids. my coworker Brian told me it looked like it needed stitches and i freaked out because i'm terrified of needles...but i left and went to the emergency room to get it looked at. i didnt have to wait long, and everyone was so nice. they had to give me a tetnus shot! and then the doctor looked at my finger and said it was a pretty deep cut, there was blood everywhere at this point also. the cut is about 1/4 of an inch deep, so they said i'd need some stitches. it was weird...they numbed my finger and it like blew up to a huge size and i couldnt feel anything as he stitched it. i didnt watch though. then he wrapped it up in gauze and tape and now i can't use my right hand for much. i can barely write, i can type with my pointer fingers. and the shot left my arm feeling all weird, and today its sore and i can barely lift it. i cant get my right hand wet also..so showering is gonna be interesting. i'm about to attempt it..wearing a latex glove. then today was supposed to be homework day, and being the last day i have to finish my HUGE graphic design 2 project, of course i cant even use RIGHT hand. i know, it sucks. so luckily i'm at home and my mom is gonna help me with comping my project an everything. i just have to get it printed and then she'll help me with cutting/mounting/gluing stuff. but this also means i cant redo my other project that i got a C on because it requires alot of hand work..hah. oh well. thats my life for you.
so i can take the wrappings off tomorrow around 11am and then wear bandaids on my finger, and in 10 days ge tthe 2 stitches out. i cant imagine how thats gonna feel. oh well. could be worse. my aunt, when she was a kid, was playing hide-and-seek and she got her thumb shut in a door and the tip of it flew off. so atleast i didnt cut off my finger. yeah...
so i learned my lesson...don't use open scissors to stab a box. i need to think more often before i do things. yeah..thinking always helps.
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| shits and giggles |
[10 Dec 2006|11:17pm] |
i did this last year and i'm doing it again for shits and giggles...
The first line of the first entry you've made every month in the year 2006:
JANUARY: dear 2006, i do not like you very much so far.
FEBRUARY: so far, i'm not really liking 2006.
MARCH: so if anyone has an explanation for why it smells meaty/like something died all over the apartment..i'd sure like to know...
APRIL: so lemme just complain for a second here.
MAY: all i want to say right now is today sucks and school blows and i hate going to work and all i really want to do right now is just go to sleep and blow up the school or something.
JUNE: summer has been pretty busy for me so far. all i've really been doing is working, driving to and from towson, and sleeping.
JULY: soooooooooo time has once again flown by and it appears that this friday i'm gonna be a year older. WHAT?!
AUGUST: so this summer is rapidly coming to an end. exactly 3 weeks (from yesterday) classes begin!
SEPTEMBER: i just found out last week that pluto is no longer a planet.
OCTOBER: halloween is officially in 2 weeks and i wish it was tomorrow.
NOVEMBER: well i just enrolled classes for my FINAL semester in college.
DECEMBER: you know what sucks..when you don't have time to do the following things because of SCHOOL or WORK
looks like the year started off bad, got smelly, i complained alot, summer was busy, i aged, school started, pluto died, halloween came/went, and i got busy again.
i update this thing like 2-3 times a month and i realized that i usually only update when i'm compaining about something. well..it is a journal or something.
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[05 Dec 2006|02:31pm] |
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you know what sucks..when you don't have time to do the following things because of SCHOOL or WORK-
-eat
-do laundry (so you have to wear dirty clothes)
-go grocery shopping
-relax
-see your friends
-fold clothes from laundry done 2 weeks ago
-clean dishes
-etc etc etc
i hate this week. and next week.
december 19th will be the next day that i am sane.
until then, i can't promise anything.
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[26 Nov 2006|02:29pm] |
well i'm happy to say my thanksgiving break went well, but its coming to an end now. tomorrow starts up my very very VERY crazy lasy 3 weeks of school. i am just shocked at how quickly this semester flew by. it came and went..and now i'm left with lots of shit to get done in a short period of time..in the craziest time of year at work. but i'll make..i always do.
so anyways, back to my break. it was relaxing at first, then got crazy, but it was good. tuesday night Jamie came over and i cooked him dinner (to celebrate our 8 month that we never did get to celebrate) and it was really nice. then we got to sleep in on wednesday, and left here and went home to my dads. i hung out there for a little while, then headed to Jamies house and had dinner. we watched Ace Ventura with his sister and her friend after dinner, then went out to Michaels Pub with some of his firends. I never knew the night before thanksgiving was a big night for drinking, but apparently it is. the bar was packed..but we still had a great time. thanksgiving was really good this year. i spent it wirh my dads family at my cousin Michaels new house. it was great seeing all my cousins that i havent seen in months. the food was beyond good..and i drank some wine, and i helped my little cousins make snowmen and snowflakes, and watched some football. black friday at work was pretty crazy..but i think it went well. we had just enough people working so that we wernt swamped and were able to get everything done on time. i printed in the lab like all day friday..and saturday. both days kinda blend togetger. i worked for about 20 hours in 2 days. printed alot of damn pictures..thats for sure.
now my break is over though..and only 3 more weeks until school is over. i just can't believe how much i have to get done in those 3 weeks..redoing 2 projects, finishing 2 more projects, 2 paintings, and a presentation about parenting in womens health...all while working about 20 hours a week..and trying to stay sane. but today is my last potential day for relaxing..and im gonna relax for a little while. my moms coming to visit me at my apartment, then im getting dinner with her and my bro..then tonight is reserved for homework/laundry.
good luck to everyone!!
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[20 Nov 2006|06:38pm] |
i can't wait to have my VERY SHORT thanksgiving break. i am seriously counting down now. todays classes went well, i got my package design project back and i got an A-, which can easily be an A if i redo them and improve my craft skills. graphic design went well but i left early because im not feeling well. of course, a break is on its way but my body wants to be all coughy and mucusy. tomorrow i only have 2 classes, then its break time for me. wednesday is gonna be a lazy day/maybe do some homework/hang out with jamie day. thanksgiving is gonna be interesting. i'm celebrating with my dads family. my parents are both acting like children with this while divorce settlement. its gonna be brought to court and all that shit, makes me feel wonderful. but i'm not focusing on that this holiday season. it ruined my holiday last year, so this one will be good. i'll eat turkey, see my little cousing, probably watch football, eat yummy desserts, maybe drink some wine, the possibilities are endless.
the next morning i get to open the lab at work..on black friday. i'm not so very excited to be working on black friday, but it'll go by fast. and there was talk of getting a chick-fil-a platter with coworkers..sounds good to me. then i work saturday all day again..everyones gonna be ordering christmas cards now. madness. this is the part of the holiday season that i LOATHE. the way people get when they have to wait in lines, or if they have to wait in general. nobody has any patience anymore. they want it and they want it NOW. isnt this time of year supposed to be joyful? not if you work in retail! atleast this year i spend most of my time printing photos and not dealing with customers.
hopefully i'm gonna be able to have off work so i can spend christmas with Jamie's family in New Jersey this year. he invited me to come up with him on the 24th-26th and i really want to go. it just depends on if my boss will give me the days off. i'm calling her tomorrow since she was away all weekend, of course.
okay thats it.
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